puzzles might be easier when you know what they should look like

wow - long blog post title. to balance - this will be a short blog post.

excited about the short week, although as it usually happens i overly jump the gun and expect the week to be even shorter all day today i thought it was tuesday. meeting during lunch tomorrow which totally disrupts the flow of the day. need to start watching more shit - stopped in treatment - netflix, etc...

picked up my couch today from jersey - things are slowly coming together - although i have to figure out what we still need. i know were gonna forget some simple stuff but all in time...

peace!

edit post: so today in getting the couch we had to travel to jersey and back. passed a few truckers. got me curious about what that life would be like - traffic never bothers me and out on the road all day - curious...

also - this question is based off of my current prject at work - would you rather have more money or more time off (based on the way things work at our co. where PTO hours that cant be carried over are paid at half time - so would you rather make that cash or actually get the time off)? how do you think your answer might change in 10 years?

goals are distracting

i dont know why i bother setting goals for my summer vacations - most of them fall by the way side by inability to stay motivated or just not enough time. i am keeping up on two goals however - watch as many phillies games as i can manage (have only missed a few - one being a day game while at work) - and play guitar every day.

yesterday i had a scary spell of bad health. while talking online around 930 i got the sensation you get when you look right at a bright light or the sun - that lingering spot. i got nervous when it was just as noticeable after 10 minutes - another 10 and i was really frustrated - not so much worried but just mad it wouldnt clear, then i started burning up and a headache ensued. a bottle of water and a bowl of ice cream later and i only felt nautious and had not shaken the headache, spot, or overheating so i went upstairs shut off all my lights and laid down - needless to say i woke up at 1 am (still feeling shitty) and decided id just stay asleep.

woke up today feeling fine, other than a bit of lingering nausea. grill day was a success - cant cmplain about a company that allots me the responsibility/respect/treatment as a fellow employee and not just a relative who got hired to do peoples work they cant get to, and a place i can barbeque at for lunch.

bought my tv for my apt today. lost a great one today. still in shock. im still waiting for the report that says TMZ was incorrect he is stll alive but it hasnt happened.

SoulPancake has another great prompt today: "

Describe a moment in time when you wanted to either stretch out or even pause your life—the last time you talked to a loved one; a spiritual experience; or a perfect vacation day."

its a good one to reflect one

also i realize i never followed up on my last post about the 5 things i miss now that theyr gone.

in no particular order: recess, vacations with my family to new locations, summers with my two cousins, innocence, wondering what things might be like 'when i grew up'. (adding on another one) -the feeling of true awe or 'wow' sensation you get when your a child and experience something truly breathtaking like your first fireworks display or trip to disneyworld

that last one still hapens but theres no as much wonderment or magic to the daydreams about the future - not as many things seem possible

trying to keep this going

So,

Todays launch went well in that almost everyone got on the site and had alot of feedback, but the login feature broke about 3 hours in and so most people just got to view the site from the public side. login function still broken

phillies continue to stress, strain, and ultimately lose their lead in the final moments/inning of the game.

getting sick of only seeing the sun once a week.

falling asleep on the way to/from work more often and its only mid june

found out the the positioning of the earth is so perfect/the habitiability of this planet is so fragile that if the earth was tilted 1 more degree in either direction the earth would not be habitable as areas near the equator would be too hot and the poles too cold to survive

iphone 3.0 woulda been sweet if at&t hadnt dropped the ball making the two biggest advancements - the tethering and MMS delayed to 2010 and late summer respectively. so tomorrows big os upgrade is a universal search function and copy/paste

soulpancake is continuing to move up on my list of sites i look forward to checking. blog style site backed by rainn wilson with brain prompt and thoughtful propositions and reflections. one of todays was the following. after reflecting on the ability to still buy a polaroid camera but polaroid film no longer available, or the nostalgic feeling a mailed letter (something from another person and not the million adds or bills that com in the mail) can bring in the age of texting a twitter the blog prompted:

what 5 things do you miss the most now that they are gone?

love the question - haven't given it much thought and while im sure i could rattle of 5 quick ones like pogs and or new episodes of arrested development i will try to post again tomorrow with some real ones. ill start with this: 1.) recess

time between meals

so apparently i can go from 745 to about 6 pm with eating little more than a pack of pop tarts working at my petes produce job. sure there are several handfuls of ice chips and occasionally a chip from the sample tray but i guess im just busy enough there that it never even crosses my mind. luckily it goes unnoticeable as i havent changed in weight for awhile despite my changes in eating habits.

i have had trouble getting motivated to get back on here but i have time to kill right now and figured i should. since leaving school i have fallen behind on everything but work. stopped reading, stopped watching in treatment, stopped going to the movies, or really watching them.

i have, however, picked up my baseball attention and have caught almost every phils game i could have and have been to one.

saw my apartment - and i am very excited for the fall. fordham/newyork totally has a different and more positive vibe to it when you are there on your own terms and not on campus, dorm style living, with classes - very happy i made the trip - and more will follow

not only have we gotten lucky with a couch and chair left behind, and jake pulling in a coffee table, and mike getting all sorts of things handed to him, but my sister's bf has pulled through as his parents are giving me their pull-out couch and his roomate is giving me two black wood end tables.

heading out tonight to P.F. Changs to celebrate (overdue) my good friend Clare's graduation from St. Joe's U.

Oh, and this morning my cousin David and his wife had a babby boy. Dylan Angelo Blankenship!!

Id like to pretend that makes me an uncle, even though it doesn't.

Peace out yall