yesterday i had a scary spell of bad health. while talking online around 930 i got the sensation you get when you look right at a bright light or the sun - that lingering spot. i got nervous when it was just as noticeable after 10 minutes - another 10 and i was really frustrated - not so much worried but just mad it wouldnt clear, then i started burning up and a headache ensued. a bottle of water and a bowl of ice cream later and i only felt nautious and had not shaken the headache, spot, or overheating so i went upstairs shut off all my lights and laid down - needless to say i woke up at 1 am (still feeling shitty) and decided id just stay asleep.
woke up today feeling fine, other than a bit of lingering nausea. grill day was a success - cant cmplain about a company that allots me the responsibility/respect/treatment as a fellow employee and not just a relative who got hired to do peoples work they cant get to, and a place i can barbeque at for lunch.
bought my tv for my apt today. lost a great one today. still in shock. im still waiting for the report that says TMZ was incorrect he is stll alive but it hasnt happened.
SoulPancake has another great prompt today: "
Describe a moment in time when you wanted to either stretch out or even pause your life—the last time you talked to a loved one; a spiritual experience; or a perfect vacation day."
its a good one to reflect one
also i realize i never followed up on my last post about the 5 things i miss now that theyr gone.
in no particular order: recess, vacations with my family to new locations, summers with my two cousins, innocence, wondering what things might be like 'when i grew up'. (adding on another one) -the feeling of true awe or 'wow' sensation you get when your a child and experience something truly breathtaking like your first fireworks display or trip to disneyworld
that last one still hapens but theres no as much wonderment or magic to the daydreams about the future - not as many things seem possible
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