Couldn't be happier (My Roommate is crazy)

Tonight I realized - considering everything, very little could make me happier right now. It's 1 am on a day where I had nothing due, preceding a few days with nothing due, and yet I have been doing work all day. Some has been for Drexel, some has been for CT, some has been in prep for things due next week. Today was my first actual day free of tests or due dates and deadlines, and I spent it busy from start to finish.

I was living on the notion that today would bring a calm. I could not wait for Wednesday, the day where I could just do nothing for awhile. And yet, the day came and I stayed active. Despite this, I am not upset in the least. In light of everything that has happened, even though I should be hanging out with friends and wasting my time, I am still busy and I am ok with it. More importantly, I am really content. I could not be more thrilled to have a future and even though it means my present is a bit jumbled, I just keep thinking about how lucky I am and that seems to block any thoughts of annoyance or feelings of stress.

With that said, it has been a full day since I realized I would be leaving this place a week earlier than planned. That despite my new found future, my more immediate lifestyle would be ending much sooner. What was meant to be two weeks of New York adventures has been cropped significantly. With my free time nonexistent, and the weather only promoting more indoor activities, there is a slight sensation of dread or panic setting in. I know New York won't be that far away, and this is not the end for the two of us, but still - I can't help but feel a sense of urgency to visit the places I have not, and do the things I imagined I would before I graduated.

It's time to step up to the plate. Here goes nothing.

(Also, my very good friend who I have known for the better part of my life graduates from college tomorrow. I know I am graduating as well, but he is officially a college grad in a number of hours. Weren't we just hanging out during lunch recess at Saint Mary's?)

(At some point tonight, amidst the frustrations of not wanting to study, my roommate grabbed a stuffed bear in his room and danced with it.)