A little less apprehension, a little more confidence

So yesterday I spent from about 1 pm to 5 am this morning working on my term paper for my capstone course/senior values course. This class is both the final Core Requirement for the school and the last tier in the Major Requirement. As such, the final paper was not going to be easy, and it was not. It was probably the most dense paper I have ever written and the longest (not including my chapter by chapter analysis for my lit class which was less a paper and more an extended list of descriptions) I have written. While the length was '10-15 about' my paper ended up, with title page and references - at 20.

As of 1 pm yesterday I had written only 2 of those pages. I am impressed with myself. At the same time, I did not do a very close proofread of it and it may be reflected in the final product exactly how last minute I did this paper. I essentially had finished the paper by about 2:30. From then until 530 I spent writing the references and placing the in-text citations for that paper and another paper also due today - a treatment study paper for my clinical psychology class. All together there were probably over 20 references and with 28 pages between the two papers - there were alot of in-text citations to be made.

Accomplishing such a task in the time I did so makes me feel a little less apprehensive about my one-day thesis paper i will write. If i am able to knock out the number of pages I did in the time I did, writing that many pages is definitely doable - not easy - just doable.

One paper left.

oh..and 4 finals - but I have time before them.

(todays picture is of a lamp outside of a building i passed walking to get a milkshake in the city. upon further inspection it was noted that this was no ordinary lamp as that is actually a flame. this area of the city was being lit by flame lamps - awesome)

build destroy rebuild

title tonight reflects, well i guess life and society but i wasn't attempting to be deep. it more is in regard to my picture of the day. whether it is clear or not that is 4 separate posters from the living room, hallway, and bedroom - all of which have fallen in the past few days. aside from one of the posters - these others are frequent fliers as in they frequently fly, or i guess fall off the walls. there isnt anything different about these posters in their size or weight to cause them to fall more often than the others but no matter how much sticky blue stuff i put on them they just come tumbling back down - sort of like the boulder that greek god got stuck trying to push up the hill (if i was smarter i might know his name).

so if you read this blog semi-often you may have caught a post i made a little over a week ago - it was the picture of my clinical psych text book. i posted this after taking my first test/exam of the semester which was in that class. that class, i thought, had kicked my ass and caught me off guard. i considered the benefits of making it pass fail which ultimately was nixed because of the time constraint with the deadline being the day after i considered this option and i was going home first thing in the morning that day. well a few days later (aka today) we get back our tests but before we do the teacher decides to 'brief us on the subject because he's learned otherwise it induces panic' - not a good start. turns out he curves the test and i didnt do badly at all. sure it still kicked my ass and without the curve id be questioning my decision to not make it pass fail - but the surprise bell curve changed my dread into anticipation - especially since after his curve breakdown - the lowest grade a person would get was a C.

so - thanks to my lack of awareness of fordham's deadlines and my frequent travels home i was able to walk out of class today feeling quite happy that this class will effect my GPA (at least for now).

you got the best of me today...