Adjustments

Tonight I had a quick mistaken thought. I turned to ask my mom, "what time are we expecting Alicia tonight?" Then I dismissed this thought when I realized she is away for a week. A whole week before that question would be applicable.

Maybe about 10 seconds passed after that thought before another one entered my head. A second correction. Yeah, she is away and won't be coming home tonight. But even once she is no longer away, even once we get to next week, she still won't be coming home. I know that sounds like I'm acting like she is dead, and I do not mean it to be. But, when the realization settled in that whether she is on vacation or not, she won't be coming back to here, that she doesn't call this place "home" anymore, I kind of just sat there. This might be harder than I would like to acknowledge.